Tiny (for lack of a better name at the moment) now has a well insulated floor! Quite the adventure this week as Matt prepared for the insulation by building a temporary enclosure and waiting for the right temperatures to call in the spray insulation team. After a very slow start to winter with very little snow and unseasonably high temperatures, the “real” winter arrived in the Sydney area, just about when our trailer did. Due to the necessary delay, Matt began framing walls. He says it’s one of his favorite things to do :). So good.
Though we can’t be onsite right now, as we are house/pet sitting several hours away, our pooch Shanti is very happy that his good friend Nuna (the howling dog of Howling Dog Construction) is on duty and putting plenty of good dog energy into this build. And though we don’t know where we are going to land with Tiny, we at least know that wherever that is we will have a well insulated floor under our feet.
In the meantime, we continue to ponder where we are going to establish ourselves, and are fielding many such questions from family and friends. The two of us are having long back and forth conversations about the pros and cons of our various options – sometimes feeling like we are going round and round in endless circles! That said, we are simultaneously so grateful that we have options! Or at least we are currently considering them as options, even though we can’t quite see how any of them will manifest. But we do trust there will be a way! A friend recently suggested that perhaps we were putting out too many factors to the universe for consideration, leading primarily to continued confusion (our own, and in the universal supply bank!) It can be difficult to attract an answer with so many competing “requests”. So we have tried to narrow down to our top priorities: proximity to friends and family; landscape our spirits connect deeply to; work we are passionate about that supports us well.
Here’s the short story of our trying to decide what ground to land on: Though we are incredibly fortunate to have strong friendships across Canada and the globe, we also recognize that a healthy handful of them live in Maine & New England. So, moving back to Campobello Island in New Brunswick makes the most sense, in many ways, as we continue to choose to live in Canada. We could have daily/weekly interactions with our dear friends. All of Judy’s siblings also live within a day’s drive. And we are in love with the ocean landscape of the island – we have both voiced, at a different time, that we’d be happy to have our ashes tossed off of Liberty Point when the time comes. So, perfect! Three priorities checked off in one place. What more could we ask for? We just have to trust that the rest will fall into place, right? Right. Except (here goes the brain…) it’s really difficult to envision how paid work would manifest on the island. We have lived there before and, though lovely in so many ways, there is no employment base there. Now theoretically, as a mobile Raw Food Educator, this could be less of a challenge. However, for most of year (excluding June-September) the only way off the island is through the US. In fact, we’d be in the US every few days to get food, gas, etc. And can you imagine crossing the border with the raw kitchen in the trunk of the car every day (which is where it would have to be stored as there is no space in Tiny)? Not ideal, and really difficult to envision. Please help us see if you have any insight!!
So, then our brains go to: Well, what if we put “work we are passionate about” at the center of our priorities? Where then? The answer feels like Cape Breton. Though we are not sure of the long term viability of the market for Raw Food Education there, we do have tremendous support around it at this point (and we feel immense gratitude for this!) and trust we could make it work (especially if we were mobile and reaching out to surrounding markets as well). We also believe that, as Nicky completes her Spiritual Director program, offering something in this realm may prove to be of service in Cape Breton. She carries forward the vision of bringing spiritual direction and raw food education together and sees the potential to help others develop consciousness about the various toxicities we have allowed into our bodies and minds and to make moves to change this. This is relatively new work, and would be a gift to this area, for sure. Plus, we love the ocean that surrounds this island too, and have made a few good friends over years we have been back and forth living in different communities around Sydney. Yet overall, we don’t feel as deeply connected on a heart level as we would like to. We love the place and the people – but do they love us? There is a powerful bonding between those that have lived in Cape Breton all their lives that sometimes feels as though we are not a part of it. And we really want to be an alive and engaged part of the community we live in.
Then there is the reality that once Tiny is complete we won’t have much in funds left to set up the systems we need to connect. We don’t own land and we will need a septic system and water and electric connections (though we will have solar to feed back into the grid.) How is any of that going to manifest on Campobello or Cape Breton? This thinking leads us to, “What if we put ‘ease of connecting to systems’ into the fore”? What then? That answer is clearly Mansfield, QC. About 1 ¼ hours west of Ottawa on the Quebec side of the river, there’s a campground and a visionary (Andy Thomson) who wants to turn the campground into a tiny house ecovillage (http://www.ddlo.ca/2012/05/the-eco-trailer-park-what/). Since part of it is set up as an RV park right now, we could land and be connected to systems within a day and without too much financial investment. Of course, we know no one out there and we haven’t formed a bond with the landscape. But – we do have a lot of great and like-minded friends in the Chelsea/Ottawa area to the east, and there’s potentially a market for raw food education and spiritual guidance there as well.
And so, round and round and round we go – always aware of the facts that, 1. We are ever so grateful to have choices at all. 2. Wherever we land will serve as an anchor for us, terra firma so to speak – a place to be and to come back to from our adventures, during which we plan to visit dear friends that don’t live nearby and immerse ourselves in beloved, yet afar, land and water scapes. And, 3. We can always change our minds and our location. That’s why Tiny is on wheels!
One thing is clear – ultimately, the decision of where to land Tiny will be a heart/gut based one and not a head one. We are engaged in the life work that our souls call us toward. When we are in major transitions times (which is happening now astrologically) life can look and feel pretty maze-like and messy. It is always interesting to try to discern how spirit’s messages and needs want to manifest in the physical realm. For those who tune into the planetary realms, it seems as though we are right on task. Saturn moved into Sagittarius in late December, and we mutable signs (Judy is a Pisces and Nicky a Sagittarius) are called upon to stand our ground as structures (Saturn) in our personal and professional lives take on a whole new shape. We are taking innovative (and practical) approaches as we evolve, carrying our beliefs and actions into whole new realms. The lack of clarity and seeming circularity is an important part of the process, as the exploration is leading to places we haven’t been before. In the process we are touching in on what has been known, to see what we want to take forward and what we want to create anew. We are being called to realistically determine who we want to become, not who we used to be. Unfamiliar territory.
Once again, good thing our tiny home – our solid ground – is on wheels!